Friday, January 23, 2015

she knows I be screen capturing

Hannah took this photo and one time, she printed it off

Thursday, January 22, 2015

Rap City the Basement

Was looking up Cassidy freestyles and entered the world that is *Not Cita's, but Rap City the Basement. So good, oh I remember watching some of these freestyles on television. Big Tigga was always trash. Dipset forever. Cassidy forever in my top 5. When birdman tossed that bandana on the mic so hilariously. Bow Wow ain't write that shit.. bla blah

Friday, January 16, 2015

babygurhl just turned 24

I broke down in further detail who this gentleman is to me in the day 1 NY post; in short one of the most pleasant strangers I've ever encountered. Amongst many things, what I found to be most intriguing in our conversation is his reason for moving out of New York. To Dallas, ironically. Overall it was a job offer... but beneath it all.. the toll of 911 still affected him 9 years later. He finally left in 2011. Said the city didn't feel the same. ...9 years later

I'm almost certain his name was John and somewhere in my phone, I have his contact information.
He was such an awesome guy. Blessings to that man.

New York: July 2014 (Day 1)

Alife watch party, Art Gallery/performance, Drinks at Pianos, Twerk Fest block party and more --> full post here

It's looking like a limb torn off

Wednesday, January 14, 2015


I wonder if I work friendships/relationships in so much, that when given the option.. someone would choose to do without me. It's such a terrible thought. possible reality. There are people I don't associate with-most of the time from a minor disagreement and I just let that friendship go. I can do without it. It's light when you're the one feeling that way, but how many people feel that way about me. How many people are done with me.
I'm uncomfortable.
Pure hilarity and fucking fantastic. This fucking dog man. Leaving his owner at the bus stop if he's not ready and just meeting him at the dog park. Remind me what life is again. Full article here

Sobriety by SZA on Grooveshark
NY, July 2014 .. very memorable night

Childish Gambino - Sober from Hiro Murai on Vimeo.

Lewisville Lake. I love this photo, if I may say so myself


I feel like writing letters to people. but I have no actual intention of giving people these letters. I guess common folk would call this a diary. I haven't decided if I'm going to do it or not. Not sure if it's kind of childish, or if I want to do it because subconsciously, I want the person I'm writing to see it one day? don't know.

I'm watching Her. It's so goddamn relevant in so many different ways. Artistically and Philosophically. Can't get over the brilliance conjured in this movie. And coincidentally I'm watching another film with Joaquin Phoenix.. so underrated. Between this and Inherent Vice, I'm tempted to go back and watch every film he's ever done. not really, but close.

In addition to setting up my schedule and syncing my computer and phone calendar, I also want a physical one. And sticky notes. But I can't help but feel like if I use sticky notes for the note to self reminders .. that's like the first stage of going crazy. If I go missing and they check my apartment. Once they see the sticky notes they're going to suggest I was off the shits, at least a little.

Tuesday, January 13, 2015

miss you already

Classic face covering selfie stowed in the phone. Dallas, December 2013
I loved it. Problem is I couldn't keep up. I literally would space out looking at the cinematography. The humor and casting--especially Joaquin Phoenix for Doc is spectacular, I got that part. But definitely a film I'll have to see a few times to fully understand.

Anyone relatively close to me knows/has dealt with my overbearing insecurity(ies) in a friendship-blame two of my previous roommates. Jayde kind of pets those insecurities, enough to calm me down until I hear a loud noise or something. I was having my doubts the other night when all the while, it was just a connection problem. talking across the world gets tricky. Eventually she said some reassuring shit/a nice reminder.. Then the next day my christmas present from her came in the mail, better late than never.

I was expecting something completely different so initially I was confused as shit when I opened it. Realized by the adjustment made to my middle name who sent it. besides eBay. It's a dirt bike Honda jersey.. something I've actually been wanting for some time now. I don't even remember when I mentioned it to her but I'm sure I did; lo and behold. Thanks, Jayde.

She decided it's better off I keep my gift to her until she visits. It's tight as shit, not gonna lie. 3 things total.
Symbolic gifts or ones given with a little extra thought steer clear to my heart, that goes for everybody.