I woke up with the same state of mind I went to sleep to last night. I thought I'd sleep it off.
I'm curious to know why some of the people closer to me.. why they talk to me. As simple as that. For a lot of people I know why.. I can see why it works, but others, it seems irregular. Saundra's gay and I taunt her about it all the time. Like all the time. And I'm an asshole, and sometimes exceptionally rude to her. This is my personality, but it's like why would 'she' want to put up with that. Cause I'm sure shit gets old.
I thought about if I were to know myself -as someone else- I would think I'm annoying as shit. I would call all my bluffs..
I don't think people realize how whack I am.
So I'd like to see what someone's personal reason why is. I asked Saundra last night and I don't think she could make out a straight answer.
And King Bradshaw(his literal nickname): I feel like I know how compatible we are or can be. But too many people don't. I know it shouldn't matter what anybody else thinks about it.. But it's like when everybody points and looks up in the sky.. you're gonna wanna to look up and see what it is too. Why isn't he dating some video vixen or young potential actress. I am none of these. not even close. I'm pierced up and it's extremely likely I have more sneakers than any guy I'm paired with. I wear t-shirts and my hats backwards. Nowadays, I attract more girls than boys. Some guys are into this style -so I've been told- but I don't believe he's one of them. We're damn sure not in love, so why does he entertain me with whatever we have now and how it may evolve to so much more. He has endless amounts of pussy thrown at him. What guy would want to drop that? For anything less than some prototype Lisa Ray.
It's like where's the fucking cream filling?
I understand I'm trippin', right now. But I'm kind of in all seriousness.
I want reassurance.
I'm sure those two will get to reading this. Hope y'all won't get too mad at me.
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