11:56pm

Review and Repent
Back in the Fall when I wrote these little things, they were to kind of release some of the recent blocks I've been thinking. &Posting them for the Public makes me think people care. Now it's beginning to feel like an Obligation. Sit Down, Sit Back, and try and find the Conclusion of your Day.
It's a lot easier certain days than others. Of course.
Today has been so entirely up and down. My day's been like a Balloon.. and air has been inflating and deflating out that motherfucker since 8:20am. There are particular things I really need in my life and I'm crossing the Hell outta my Fingers. There are others I can't push further away from Me.
And this is the w r o n g time to lose Motivation for school. I'll leave it at that.. I really need to get on it -shift gears again.
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I think I'm Anemic. Like really. I can't explain how often I get cold in the most normal of temperatures-my fuckin insides start shivering. And I believe I'm so cold, I keep my teeth clenched. I keep them clenched so tight, My gums are sore and it hurts to chew.. I think I outta really check this out.
I walked past a squirrel like 4 feet away from me going to class this morning. 4 Feet.. Do you know how abnormally close that is? And the nigga didn't even Flinch.
I don't ever feel like eating anymore. I only do cause of Hunger Pains. I've been forking around my food lately.
Lauren Called. wondering when I get out of school. There's a possible chance of me going to Los Angles which I Reallyyyy want to. ..but Idk if I want to go with my Mom and Sister? ...I was more on the line with my UNKO family.
I called Saundra and we talked. She brought it to my attention how much has happened to me this past week. Where's the breaks on this thing.

I was gonna go running.. wash my hair.. work on my project.. but I just want to sleep. I don't think I'll even change outta the clothes I have on. I think I'm depressingly content. I hope that makes sense. Maybe it's just today.
We'll see tomorrow.